In this world, u come in contact with so many people. And while some of those people are just passing though and never make a serious impact, one will be the one you marry. One will be your best friend. One will be so cool, you want to chill with them all the time. While one will be your worst enemy. And many will fall in and out of these categories and end up passing through.
To all those who have made a difference and stayed for a little longer... fuck you. You have truly proved yourselves to be the worst of all. With the exception of maybe 1 or 2 people who are not directly related to me... I have become a massive ball of trash. Easily tossed aside by everyone who once treasured who I was. And then they ask... what happened to u??? Where did u go??? How can I be they same person??? Tell me someone. I have been cheated on, ignored, left, neglected, played, and most importantly LIED to by the people I love most in the world. So I think it must be me. And it must be. So I refuse to talk to these people again. I allowed them to kill my spirits and I feel dead.
From my "best friend" to my best friend to my ex (who can't stand the thought of being my ex but can't seem to tell the truth)... I have been shit on too many times to really count.
I hate men. I have never been that girl before... but I quickly became her when since I've been single I have been hit on by at LEAST 5 different MARRIED men. Only making me realize... it doesn't stop after u get married. Cheaters cheat and liars lie.
And to my bestie, thank u. Half of ur life (literally) has been devoted to trying to get me out of that trust everyone bullshit I always seem to do (no matter how many times it has proved me to be an idiot). U succeeded. Bc u were one of the last people on earth I trusted and u fucked that up pretty terribly. But I guess its like they say... it was fun while it lasted. Kinda.
To this cruel word... I have finally become the creature everyone has always wanted me to be. I don't care. Just like all of you. I guess its true what they say about this dumb world being hell. When u lift that veil... all I see is horror.
And if that's how u feel... hang up. That's how I feel... thanks for understanding.
And last but not least... she's different. My only prayer is she gets the fuck away from u b4 u play her and fuck her clean over too.
Goodbye. This time... I mean it.
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