Friday, December 11, 2009

The World of Wants and Needs

It is so crazy to me how when you feel something it is not valid until someone else can actually feel what you are going through. The words that people , even with the best descriptions, will never compare to learning on your own.


wow. lets play to see who wins. where is my innocence?
is this the face of the one who tried to "save" me?

You have hurt me... leave her alone.
response: he hurts me. i hate him just as much

love. what is it? nothing.

please stop. y cant u see that u are breaking my heart?
response: im young and im not ready to stop yet.

ive been with someone else
response: (click)*heartbreak*

where were u the first time?
when i cried.
y run?

where do u run?
how long do you stay?

time is of the essence.
innocence doesnt exist.

years b4:
dont do it jamie. i have been corrupted but save yourself.
response: you are not corrupted. stop with all that.
1 and a half years later... y am i so dumb?? y cant i go back. i am corrupted.
response: i told you so is not a game its a way of life. i just wanted to save you.

how can i be saved now?
response: treat it like death. with many steps.

once you hit rock bottom, you have no where to go.(but up?)

SOMEONE... ANYONE. tell me what that feels like because i thought i hit the rock a few weeks back but i keep on falling farther and farther. update me. when is up? if there's up. maybe. ha. probably not.

Angels and Demons

Demons: Crawl in me and steal my brain.
Come in my life put out the flame.
Robbed and broken; battered and torn
A beautiful rose that cut me with your thorn

Angels: Fly above and save my heart
Remind of time b4 we part
Mind is strong but my will is not
Ripped in half but not completely shot

Demons: steal my life and with that love
Watch me try but smashed my dove
Remember without it you are none
Hold on tight, (grab a…) …cuz you are done

Angels: Talk to me and let us play.
Try again with each new day
I am here don’t be scared
U know that it won’t be fair.

Walked right out without a look
Walked away, I am shook
Took a chance and fucked me good
Took one shot. Didn’t think I would.

Goodbye… love, raindrops… hate
Sleep…forever, Rescue…fate
Love…gone, Hate…new
Memories… vanish, me… you

HATED death…
EVOLve love
I quit. I push.
Someone shove!