Dopest Shit On Earth

Tried ta murder himself twice. Body and mental. What a waste of potential. Look what he make wit his pencil. U stood by him thru it. I wouldve hated to hav been u. And u mothered his child. U really loved him didnt you? - T...(Dot)

I dont remember feeling like this in November. But this is something I never wanna forget. And for some reason... i truly believe I wont ever have to. Thank you God. Welcome to happiness.

She Devil

I met the devil today and she simply said hello

The more I looked at her I could swear I saw her skin glow

She was so pretty and I seemed to fall in love

I even went as far as to look up and said thanks to the man up above

Man, i NEEDed a good friend

(Who knew this was the end)

And then I saw her smile

I didn’t see this coming - not for a fuckin mile

My heart is weak

It still haunts my dreams

Why did You give him permission to look at the desires I seek

That’s the only way he would have known that I would fall.. well that’s how it seems

I still wanna look at her and hold her hand

I still wanna call and ask, “can we move past”

But emotions on a beach… washed away by sand

And thoughts of how when she said yes… it didn’t last

How could you be ok with what u did

I think about all the times we shared and the words we said

How could u blame everything on me

And somehow u acted like I messed up what was meant to be

I was Ariel… I just wanted my dream

Signed up for an amazing friendship with the queen

Looking towards my future and having everything

And there I was as I watched her sing

It was my voice and it was my plan

Downward spiral into fiery home

Wishing for the cooling sensation of a snowflake or fan

But there I was burned… already scorched my dome

I allowed you to haunt me for about half of my year

I let you change me into a person I wasn’t

I watched and I promise u I will not shed one more tear

I will love myself and fuck everyone who doesn’t

You broke me… I was Job and forgot that I was strong

And now I do remember to thank Him all day long

God gave you permission to remind me how pray

And I swear I will never allow you to tempt me again after today

You won a battle and I won a war

And honestly I pray for u bc the Devils a whore

He listens and promises everything that’s good

But then ur alone and he stole anything he could

Good luck my old friend… the love will never die.

Im sorry u and I had to end like this,

Im cutting your hold on me and on us.

This is my goodbye…

To you, pain. 

Happy

I have never been this happy in my life.

I know that there was a major bump in the road. more like a dumb rat... but it turned into roadkill and my life has slowly fallen back into place.

I am where I was before with knowledge of how deep my love runs that I didnt have before.

Thank you God. All things happen for a reason. And thank God I believe... because the faithful are always rewarded. To think I ever doubted. I love you Tooda.

Thank you for being the man of my dreams.