hilarity

yesterday ur pissed bc we dont, today u have no desire to.

one day ur "obsessed", and the next night you dont even wanna talk. 

i would rather die than live without u. but i wish i knew what emotion i was living for. everyday is something different. im going crazy. im so blessed. and still i dont know what to expect. like ive said time and time again.

I AM NEVER RIGHT. y didnt i wanna talk yesterday, y do i wanna talk today. i only have to be at work for us in 7 hrs and i still have to wake up n get ready so im lookin at bout 5 hrs of sleep bc i was such a bitch yesterday to u, i was like imma stay awake bc he always wants to talk. "well, im going to bed."

well... there i am...

WRONG. AGAIN.

i will never do the right thing. ever. so i guess i should get comfy here. i must say its cold but im already becoming numb from it... soon i wont feel it anymore. i will be just like her. always trying to measure up and never quite making it. defending her lover with every once of her bc shes so used to it, it almost seems right. 

heres to the rest of our lives... may my numbness come quickly so my pain becomes minimal and my failures, dimmed.