Goodbye to You.

Goodbye to you my one and only love.

I would hate to end things on the note that we did. So simple. So short. So insincere.

However... because I have forced to grow up faster than I would wish to... i did not have any other option. You my love are so beautiful. You are everything that a man longs to be. Fun, sweet, loving, and oh, so gentle. You touch makes me melt because it seems I have always belonged right there in ur grasp.

It is funny how every single person in the whole world tells the same story... at least once. Why do you always have to fall in love with the one who wont love u back?

viscous cycle that love... (u - ashley; me - u; joe - me)

forever is as long as it seems. and it will be how long i choose to live without u since my decision to live with u for that same amount of time... seemed ify "sometimes"

i am not a writer. that is who you are. But i do know how to follow through with decisions i make.
...like a few days ago me and my best friend in the world at the time (seems like these days i am running out of friends... bc sadly it has only been like 2 days and we arent friends anymore - even tho i had just confided in him about how i thought he was the only friend i had left... life scared him away so im alone) decided that we would let go of all of our pain. a goodbye note to pain.

Who knew at the time... i would be saying goodbye to you when i wrote it.

FATAL ... literally... mistake. believing u loved me in round 1. damn. what a bitch to believe again. ppl always did say i was a bitch.

i hope that everyone in this world is happy. bc i thought for a while there it was we against the world. now i look about as stupid as she... all along it was just me.

remember this when u lie ur head to rest. you will always be the man of my dreams... so every night i will see u and smile. I wish that you find the girl of yours. I am sorry I could not be her. But I am not the kind of girl you want.

Traits in the Perfect Girl for u:
Bitch
Mean
Fake
Bad Friend
FLAKY
Pretty/Sexy

Traits in the One who Loved You
Bitch
Nice
Genuine
Die Hard Friend
Consistent in her Desires
Beautiful

well im a bitch. lol.

When you find that girl... the one when forever seems like a pleasure - bc thats what it sounded like to me - i hope for only one thing... that i get to shake her hand. (and maybe sing that broken road song by rascall flatts song to her) bc who cares who u stepped on in the process. u finally found the dream girl.

i died... never shaking her hand. u have to learn to put someone ahead of u to fall in love. man... loneliness will suck. i promise to write. send a postcard from a happy place. u will love the pictures because i know u must have never seen what it looks like there... every time i tried to vacation there... when we got close... we got lost. u always seemed to push it away. well u cant steal from me. and i will hike there. ALONE.